Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Prayers For Roxanne..

The kids let me sleep in this morning.I woke up to my son kissing my face.I smiled and reached for my phone to see the time,9:30am!And then there was the missed text from 6am this morning from Tess letting me know Vince had passed.My heart shattered and the tears ran warm down my face.I hugged my babies.

Those of you that remember my past blog posts about him know that 4 years old is just too young to leave this world and yet that is the reality.For those of you that are new to my blog Vince had brain cancer.I apologize for not updating everyone more but wanted to be respectful of the families privacy as his health declined.I've known for a while it was getting bad so I felt awful ignoring the inquiries I'd gotten about him but didn't want to over step my bounds as I'm sure you all can understand.

I could say a lot.I could ramble on and on I'm sure but as it is ,its hard to see the computer screen through the tears that have come and gone all day.Vince is just a smidge older than Heidi and I keep watching her thinking "what if she wasn't here anymore?Just gone!" and it makes my heart break that much more for Roxanne.

Vince,you are...were an awesome kid.You fought hard.You endured more pain than any child ever should.In the end the cancer was more than your little body would handle.Some things are bigger than us.Your death is so much bigger than me.I don't understand it.I know life isn't fair.But your passing makes me realize this all that much more.I find comfort knowing you're no longer in pain though.I'm not in the same faith but I hope your God holds you close and you're with friends and families passed before you.Remember to watch over your little brother and your Mother.A warm breeze in her hair to remind her you're still there kid.

Before my titles and tags for Vince were "praying for Vince".Vince doesn't need them anymore though.He's moved on to better and bigger things.Instead now I ask for prayers for Roxanne.

Roxanne I hope you know how much support you have and how inspiring you have been to so many of us.You are truly a pillar of strength.I have been a mixture of sad and angry all day.It was very humbling to hear you say you were trying to show Gods love and grace through this instead of anger.You're a better person than I.I'm happy in the end he got to pass at home with you and his father there for him.
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I just wanted to share this sad news with my fellow readers that have taken the time to care and keep this family in your thoughts and prayers.It DOES mean something.In a world so jaded and self important taking the time out for someone else has become a rarity so its not in vain and it is appreciated.

Nothing takes away the hurt of losing a child.It is the greatest injustice a parent can face is outliving their offspring.For those of you with kids,hug them extra tight today.It is unfortunate that bad things have to happen for us to be reminded of how grateful we SHOULD be.Vince,you might have only been 4 but you've taught me that lesson.Looking at your photos,your eyes portrayed to me that you were an old soul,you were definitely wise beyond your years little man.I'm just sorry you couldn't stick around to enlighten us all a little more.

Thursday, August 18, 2011

Right There in Black and White....

My entire outfit today was black and white so I thought it'd be fun to do the photos in black and white also.

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Side shot
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Other side shot...ok really I'm just being vain at this point I'll stop
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close up so you can see the cute rhinestone and stud detail on my sunnies
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Thank you Nordstroms Rack,I love thee and thy cute hugely discounted shoes!
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Heidi blowing bubbles,she's basically a pro at this.
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Ollie waiting enthusiastically to attack the bubbles
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Thanks Heidi for the full outfit shot kiddo.
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Lug Nut mad at me cause I sneaked on him sunbathing and startled him,he stood up displeased and sleepy.
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Also displeased with my picture taking was Wayland.When I told him to say "cheese" he said "shhhhhhhhh"
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Some more on the dress.That little number was a thrift store score.If it looks like a maids or waitress dress its because it is probably one or the other.Its an "Angelica".For my nursing friends that may ring a bell as they do a lot of scrubs but the company has been around since 1878!Its nylon so its an easy toss in the wash for me.Unlike yesterday when I was wearing my vintage silk bowling shirt and my son decided to run up to me with his hands covered in sweet and sour sauce and use me as a towel.If you ever see moms in sweatpants and shirts.It may not be because they gave up on their looks,it might just be that they can't afford to keep up with their dry cleaning bill anymore! ;)

Monday, August 8, 2011

Autumn Leaves...

When it comes to our wardrobe I'm sure most of us aim for things we can wear anytime but there is no denying somethings are just seasonal.I feel that way about some of my vintage costume jewelry and look forward when that time of the year to wear them rolls around.Makes them just a bit more special to me.Autumn is my favorite season so no surprise I have a lot of autumn themed jewelry.Here are a few pieces I still have out that I though I'd share with you.


My acorn and oak leaves celluloid bracelet:
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and 2 necklace:
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Hoping to be back in the mid west where I can truly appreciate autumn soon.Have my eyes on a house I'm really excited about but don't want to jinx anything just yet.Come on autumn I'm ready for you!Ready for leaves crunching beneath my shoes,hot apple cider and sweater weather!